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I love you Jill!
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Me and Jill got together on December 6, 2003. Ever since then its been a roller coaster of love, weve gotten through so much together. Tragically on January 15, 2004, it all ended. It was because of a stupid mistake. This wasnt the first breakup of the couple, we dated once before for a little over a month in 7th grade. We had broken up last February and twice in the summer months, then again a few more times the year of our freshman school year. We both go to different schools, so when we were dating, It was hard to get together, but that didnt stop us, until about 2 months ago, When I made the biggest mistake of my life, where I broke up with Jill. She said it was also the most hurtful thing Ive done to her, ever since then, Ive wanted her back, and I wont give up until the day I die.

The Conversation that ended it all....
The best year of my life, ended in an instant, because I was mad. I was mad for the dumbest reason ever. See the next day was going to be so cold, that school was cancelled, so I went to take a nap, and when I woke up. Kim was there, and I didnt want to share Jill, because I loved her so much I wanted her all to myself, and I was grumpy, so I started a huge fight, over nothing. So Jill said then dont date me, see if I care and I said fine, were over. It was all over in an instant.

Soon to be edited, with a picture of me and Jill
Me and Jill (soon will be added)

Two of the Songs that most remind me of me and Jill, Both were at one point going to be our song, when we were dating. We never decided though.
 
 
Staind- So Far Away      Black- Lyrics    Blue- My translation
 
This is my life- My life with Jill
Its not what it was before- Its so much better with Jill in it
All these feelings i've shared- All the feelings I have towards Jill
And these are my dreams- My dream with Jill, All Ive ever wanted.
That I'd never lived before- Ive never been so lucky before
Somebody shake me
Because I must be sleeping- It all feels to good to be true

Now that we're here- Where we were before we broke up
It's so far away- So from away from my life with her
All the struggle we thought was in vain- All the fights we conquered
All in the mistakes- All the fights I started
One Life contained- My life with her, complete
They all finally start to go away- Everything bad, I dont feel with her
Now that we're here its so far away- So far from where I want to be with her
And i feel like i can face the day I can forgive- How she always forgave me, When we were dating
And I'm not ashamed to be the person that I am today- Im with her, the prettiest girl alive, and she was out of my league

These are my words
That i've never said before- Ive never told anyone the things I told her
Ithink i'm doing okay- Im doing the best I can with her
And this is the smile
That I've never shown before- My happiness when I was with Jill

Somebody shake me because I
I must be sleeping- It seems to good to be true, just to know her

I'm so afraid of waking- Im afraid of losing her (when were dating)
Please don't shake me-  I Dont want to ruin it all

Kelly Clarkson- A Moment Like This

 

What if I told you
It was all meant to be- How I know me and Jill are meant to be 
Would you believe me- Does she believe me?
Would you agree- Does she agree
It's almost that feeling
We've met before- I lost her too many times, I wont again If I get her back
So tell me that you dont think I'm crazy- My love for her is so large, does she think Im crazy?
When I tell you love has come here and now- Love came between me and Jill

A moment like this- A moment with Jill was the best
Some people wait a lifetime- Some people wait forever to find the one, I found her, Jill
For a moment like this- A moment with Jill 
Some people search forever- Ill wait forever for her
For that one special kiss- The kisses me and Jill shared were the best ever
Oh I can't believe it's happening to me- I cant believe how lucky I was to have her
Some people wait a lifetime- Some people wait forever to find their perfect person, I found her, Jill
For a moment like this- A moment with Jill was the best

Everything changes- Our relationship changes, but I want the old one back
But beauty remains- Shes so beautiful, shes the most beautiful girl my eyes have ever seen
Something so tender- She was so soft, when I held her, nothing mattered but me and her, and how we were together
I can't explain- I cant explain my love for her, because it is so great
Well I may be dreaming- It was so good, I may be dreaming
But 'till I awake- How I lost her, but Ill do whatever it takes to get her back
Can we make this dream last forever- Me and Jill, If were together again, will last forever
And I'll cherish all the love we share- I miss the love we had, which I still have for her, I miss everything about her

Could this be the greatest love of all- Nobody will ever love anyone the way I love Jill
I wanna know that you will catch me when I fall- Ill always be there for her
So let me tell you this
Some people wait a lifetime- Some wait forever for their true love
For a moment like this- I found Jill, why did I lose her?

Jill Im so sorry for everything. I want you back so badly, Id do anything. You made my life happy, now its just dull and nothing. As you said, you needed me to be your boyfriend, well that is all I want to be. I know in the three diary entries of yours I read, I saw how you thought you had given me too many chances, but I want another, to prove to you, I can be a better boyfriend to you, stop all the fighting. I may not be perfect, but I want you back Jill. I figured out how to stop all the fighting. I figured that if you just yell BRIAN! it makes me realize what im doing, because I dont realize what ive done until its too late, so I know it will work, but in case, if you just temporarily blocked me, or signed off until the next day, then we could work it out, or if I call you, I know Im talking to you so I dont yell. Its just I dont realize what Im doing until its too late, which is why I dumped you, I know I hurt you, Ill do anything to fix them, but I dont want you to just say ok, and forget like you always did, I want you to use them against me, so I cannot start fights with you or hurt you anymore. I want to be the best boyfriend I can be to you, If youd give me another chance, I know this may seem suddle, because your probably still upset and dont trust me, but I need you Jillian Marie, I love you with all my heart, Ill never give up because theres no other you. If I had to imagine the perfect girl, she wouldnt even come close to you, you mean everything to me and more, I want you back. I made this whole site, to show you how sorry I am for breaking your heart, but I want it all to be back to the way it was before, without the fighting.

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